if you're on the shore, than you're sure not me-o

one week from today, i'll be on a cruise ship. leaving from italy. on my way to fucking croatia.

this is ridiculously awesome.

non cruise related, i've been thinking lately about the effort i put into certain relationships with people and whether or not it's worth it. like, do i feel that the same amount of effort is given back in trying to maintain some kind of contact with me that i put into it? is it that this is happening now as i'm getting older and people are drifting or is it that i'm just now starting to recognize it? i want to feel like people care about me and i want to feel like people think about me - when i exert some kind of effort and try to reach out to people, i'd like them to do the same or at least acknowledge that i'm trying... or something. i don't know. overthinking. as usual. not a big drama - just something i'm thinking about because i'm feeling old.

oh just remember the telephone, well it works in both ways - jason mraz

good night :)